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smile fo me daddy [01 Jun 2006|07:22pm]
[ mood | fucking in love ]

i know i havent been writing in this thingy much lately, but i do think about doing it all the time lol

im the happiest girl in the world i think...completely head over heels in love with a boy thats sitting in this room with me at this very second.

ive been far too caught up in that to be focused completely on anything else, thus the problem with trying to update my journal lol

but i did write today! so 10 points for me!

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let me save you [25 Apr 2006|08:33am]
[ mood | MONSTER YAY! haha ]

kay so i know ive been m.i.a. here for awhile. i havent really spent much time online at all. ive been having the best time ever lately though. meeting someone new who loves me for who i am is something rare and im loving every minute of it.

AND aparently i have jealous girls after me...which sounds bad but im actually pretty stoked about it. silly huh?

he likes to think he has jealous boys but i dont think thats the case lol

but i just wanted to assure you all that im alive and well and VERY VERY happy. but i do miss my friends...im going to make it a point to see them more.

love you all!

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these days are the best ones of my life [04 Apr 2006|09:15am]

i couldnt ask for anything more as of this very moment. happiness is an amazing thing.
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[02 Apr 2006|09:38am]
[ mood | twitterpated ]

Oh, say, "Please do not go."
When you know, oh, you know,
That I must,
Oh, say, "I love you so."
You know, oh, you know,
You can trust.

We'll be holding hands once again.
All our broken plans, I will mend.
I will hold you tight,
So you know,
It is love.
From the first,
Time I pressed my,
Hand into yours,
Thinking oh, is it love?

Dear, it’s been,
Hardly three days,
And I'm longing,
To feel your embrace.
There are several days before,
I can see your sweet face.

Oh, say,
"Wouldn't it be nice,
To be older and,
Married with me?"
Oh, say, "Wouldn't you,
Like to know right now,
That we'll be,
Some day holding hands,
At the end?"
All our lovely plans,
Will have been.
I will kiss you soft,
So you know,

It is love.
From the first,
Time I pressed my lips against yours,
Thinking, oh, is it love?

Oh, your heart may long,
For love that is more near.
So, when I'm gone,
These words will be here,
To ease every fear,
And dry up every tear,
And make it very clear,
I kiss you, and I know,

It is love.
From the first,
Time I set my,
Lips against yours,
Thinking oh, is it love?

Oh, it is love.
From the first,
Time I pressed my,
Lips against yours,
Thinking oh, is it love?
I kiss you and I know,

It is love.
From the first,
Time I set my,
Lips onto yours,
Thinking oh, is it love?

isnt forest just the bestest? :)

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he loves me... [01 Apr 2006|12:51am]
its true!
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can't you feel my heart beat fast? [28 Mar 2006|08:51am]
[ mood | excited ]

i want this to last!

kay so im officially the happiest girl everrrr. my boyfriend is amazing. he makes me feel like im special and pretty and great. ive never had a boy treat me with so much respect or care...its unbelievable.

he takes things slow which is a nice change from boys just going straight down my pants. it makes me feel like he cares more about me than any of them did. he wants to be with me and he wants me to meet his family. i LOVE his niece...her name is lauren too and she just thinks thats the greatest thing ever. shes adorable. i love that since we talked for so long before we even started going on dates, we are so comfortable with each other. we tell each other everything and we dont keep things from each other. honesty is important to me too since ive been mislead and cheated on in the past.

its just so refreshing to feel something real after everything ive been through since july. im excited for the future...and my moms meeting him today hehe. im hopeful that she doesnt dislike him like she did andrew lol.

anyway i just thought id share my newest news with internet land.

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[27 Mar 2006|01:24am]
[ mood | AMAZING ]

i have a lover that i love to love

hes all mine

the end.

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[24 Mar 2006|11:56pm]
[ mood | loved ]

hes amazing

he touches me like im special.

he makes me feel different.

i hope it lasts...

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youre beautiful [12 Mar 2006|10:34pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

but ill never be with you.

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[06 Mar 2006|10:57pm]
[ mood | i miss all of you ]

i miss myself. the me i once was.

and i miss the people i lost along the way.

i hope they miss me too.

i miss so many people right now it would take all night to list them. so bet on it that if youre reading this i miss you.

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im just getting started [28 Feb 2006|08:49am]
[ mood | i need some coffee ]

ok so i guess nobody does this whole lj thing anymore.

but recently ive found it useful in just getting my thoughts out there.

im having a lot of issues figuring out exactly what im supposed to be doing in all my relationships. wether its with boys or girls or whatever. im feeling like im going through some sort of transition into maybe being a lil more of an adult. im looking forward to getting out of my parents house. not being under their watch and constant supervision might just help me become a better and slightly more secure person. not always worrying about what my parents think and when i have to be home and what sort of bullshit im going to have to deal with, etc. will help me be a lot less stressed out i think.

i have enough to deal with without my mom breathing down my neck about every thing i do.

i might actually enjoy being with my parents a lil more if i didnt live with them too. i might actually look forward to coming to their house instead of dreading it.

i dunno.

thats not the only relationship thats having problems.

every single one at this point seems to be going through some wierd stage that i cant figure out. hopefully i do soon though cuz its driving me insane.

i guess thats all i have to say for now.

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its me and the moon she said [26 Feb 2006|12:31am]
[ mood | hopeful. wishful. ]

and ive got no trouble with that!

andrew mcmahon knows how to say it best.

ive had a ROUGH week. and some people know why. others dont. it doesnt really matter why i did in the end. i just did. the end.

im hoping for a brighter better week this time. and im hoping for some other things as well. but thats another story entirely.

so wish me luck in finding a lil more happiness in the week to come.

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i am unwritten [22 Feb 2006|03:52pm]
[ mood | famished. ]

hey all...im so happy today for no reason at all lol

i actually shouldnt be happy. i was up at 5 am, worked a 8 hour shift, and i have to do homework tonight.

but i dont even care for some reason. i feel fabulous...YAY!

sad news, no tickets left for my academy is... and hellogoodbye show. i cried. sad days. i always miss the good ones. always.

thats ok ill go out to loveland that night and cry an emo river with ross to take care of me.

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here we go again [19 Feb 2006|10:10am]
[ mood | im ok with it! ]

im not sure whats going on with me right now.

and im ok with it actually.

for the first time ever im ok with uncertainty....isnt that amazing?

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ill never let this go [14 Feb 2006|08:27am]
but i cant find the words to tell you...
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i want a lover i dont have to love [12 Feb 2006|07:55pm]
[ mood | tired but not sleepy ]

im feeling conflicted...

not quite sure why. cuz i have really slim to no conflict in my life. but i feel that way for some reason.

i was sitting all alone in my room with a blanket wrapped around me and i just started feeling wierd and my heart started to hurt. you know? how it hurts when you get your heart broken but not as bad?

anyway it started and im not sure why so i went online to distract myself and decided to listen to the wonderous voice of connor.

imma figure myself out yet. i swear.

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i am me. i wont change for anyone. [06 Feb 2006|11:28pm]
[ mood | silly ]

i love boys.

theyre amazing.

especially when they make me feel THIS way.

the end.

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every kiss begins with k [04 Feb 2006|10:33pm]
[ mood | excited ]


tomorrow should be amazing for its own reasons. excitement is in the air.

can you feel it?

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i been thinkin bout my doorbell... [02 Feb 2006|11:25pm]
[ mood | twitterpated as hell ]

when you gonna ring it?

k so i love coming home and smelling like a hott boy. when their scent lingers on your clothes...i LOVE that!

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i WANT YOU back! [24 Jan 2006|09:43pm]
[ mood | giggly ]

so kissing boys is my favorite....especially hotties named ross.


makes me giggle and tingle all over....

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